I am not perfect.
I'll give you a moment to digest that fact...
- I hate my upper arms and thighs. They wobble too much.
- I hate my boobs. They're too big for my frame. My bra size is actually 34 O.M.G.
- I hate my jelly belly. You can definitely pinch at least an inch of it.
- I hate my bum. It looks like two piglets fighting under a blanket.
I was prompted to write this post by something I read last week that really got to me. It was written by a blogger who is very obviously haunted by a lot of emotional demons. In her post, she wrote that her boyfriend was trying to make her get help for her bulimia, but she didn't want help. She'd recently lost a lot of weight and wanted to lose even more. This upset me and I really felt for her. Then I read the first comment, and it affected me to the point that I had to walk away from the computer and give myself a time out. Instead of pleading for the blogger to get help or telling her that making herself vomit was bad for her, the commenter congratulated her on her weight loss and encouraged her to lose more.
Anyway, cut back to the present day. I am now what's known as A Big Girl. I am borderline medium, borderline fat. I don't eat too much, but I do eat too much of the wrong kind of food, purely because it's cheaper and I'm on a budget so tight it's practically strangling me. Also, the meds I'm on for my old friend bipolar are notorious for weight gain. I could probably eat the same as a sparrow and still gain weight. And I know I don't do enough exercise, because... because... well, because of lots of reasons which I'm not going to into because they sound like excuses. They even sound like excuses to me and I know they're genuine reasons...
... Damn. It's got to be a bad sign when you don't believe your own honesty...
Anyway, anyway, anyway... I am bigger than 98% of my female friends (which could be why a majority of my friends are male). I have curves in all the right places and several in the wrong places. I know I'm overweight even though I haven't weighed myself in years. I won't allow scales in my flat because of my self-starvation experience.
Nowadays being big is considered anything but sexy...
23% of British citizens (and 31% of Americans) are obese. With fast food restaurants with huge portions on every high street and the price of healthy food forever increasing, it's hardly surprising. For example, I could buy two of these...
|2 litres of Cola|
|1 litre of cranberry juice|
If magazines and television are anything to go by, to achieve true happiness, you must have the perfect figure. Apparently skinny = happy. I'm not sure the 70 million people worldwide suffering from anorexia or bulimia would agree. Neither would the 50,000 who will die as a result of their desperation to be skinny.
I also believe that air brushing should be outlawed. Let's see what these perfect women truly look like.
I think the only solution is moderation. If you're hungry, eat something. If you want a cookie, have a damn cookie - just not too many If you eat too much and exercise too little, don't be surprised if you put on weight. If you want to lose weight, do it sensibly with a healthy diet and exercise. If someone tells you they're worried about how much weight you're losing, take the time to consider what they're saying. They might just have a point.
Okay, rant over. All this blogging is making my hungry, so I'm going have a slice of pizza. Or two.
I'd rather be fat and happy than skinny and miserable. And hungry.